As some might know last year I lost my dog from a tumor that burst inside of her, to where she died in my arms. ( I’m still messed up from that), and most likely are some new reason as to why I have a mixer of insomnia and narcolepsy, or even the reason why I have an erratic slept patterns.

Tho last night I had a dream about the time where I lost Missy, but it felt so real, as if it was happing right now. However this time I was able to save her life. Tho the true reality kicked in when I had awoken from my dream to see that she wasn’t there. My eyes filled with tears missing her all over again, as if it just happen again, but for a moment I could feel her right next to me, and I still do.

I know that I’ve never been able to talk about that day, or the things that happen after, and maybe the reason for this dream was telling me that the time has come for me to finally talk about. Tho a part of me still isn’t ready, but maybe I’ve waited long enough. I am sorry if this at all seem like I’m dwelling on this, but it not something that I can get over , death has a real hold on me and loosing Missy was one blow I was never ready for, it been 9 months now but still the pain is still with me.

I have not regrets I just wish she was by my side again…

on Nov 14 Missy passed away

Looking deeply in to each other eyes, he felt the cold air kissing him against his back, with chilled numbest of the cold night  of a sorrow tomorrow, his eyes open with unseen sadness of a torn heart and a broken soul, tho still he heard her voice telling him to move forward to the unknown future. . .

Gazing append her for what seem to be one last time as, his eyes slowly close as he reaches out towards her with open arms. Feeling her body ageist his, as they pulled each other closer into there arms, holding each other tightly, as the sweetest of tears fell from there eyes, as the world around them fade to back leaving only them in the moment of time, with his eyes start to open with him saying “I love you . . . and I’ll find you again. . .just wait for me”

However,
He lived in another world, a man who forgot about his reality, and now lived from within his own dreams,
He was that kind of guy, a man that was not scared to die, for those that he held close to in his heart,
Forever living in shattered memories, that would take his breath away,
Memories that held him so tightly, that he at times found it hard to breath,
Hearing her voice calling to him, telling him to find the paradise within his heart,
Cause for him that would mean to dream in a perfect utopia,
A dream that would last for all eternity,

He said that he lives in his mind’s eye, to where it leads to a battle between heaven and hell,
Even tho he search to the ends of the earth, there was nothing there,
No matter how far he walk, it was the same road that just went on and on,
He said that he came here to save what was precious to his world,
But not knowing how he could do so,
Tho in spite of that, her voice inspired him to move on, drive him to find his paradise.

Setting here were the ocean meets the sand, where he continually loses himself within deep thoughts,
With questions that run in his head, question that have no answers,
Still he continues to move forward to find the answers the lies within himself,

Looking back,
Had he die so long age? Is this just the world that the stars show him,
Just a dream, or is this world actual reality?
He ask himself
“Will this night, be the last night, that I gaze upon the moon with all of her beauty?”
Standing on his own two feet with his head held high, to see a sky with nothing in it,
But the beauty of millions of stars, showering all around him,
However he doesn’t understand what going on, or how he feels,
But his eyes remembered, they remembered that she was the one that he fell in loved with,
Tears flowing form out of his soul, as now he want to find a way to escape from this world of dreams.
He want to bring himself back to reality, tho can’t help but to move forward as he says
” I will not stop until I find my paradise”

Deep down,
It was just that he was to frightened to open he’s eyes,
And see that she was in front of him,
As he should of understood that she was the one that was in his heart,
His eyes open for what it seem to be the first time,
As he finally saw her face, and said,
“Your the one I’ve been waiting for“
He walked away from his path, for he was not alone anymore,
He had her at his side, as they walked under the moon’s guiding lights,
As told her,
“Your always be here with me, even if this is a dream, I can feel you inside my heart, as it beats from what is seems to be the first time in years”

by Rio K. / chaotixfusion

(Before I tell this story, I would like to say that I can’t take full credit for the work. If anything, I can only take credit for 25% of it. Everything else was from something I saw a few nights ago, and I wanted to put it into text form. I give all the credit to Makoto Shinkai. I hope that you all enjoy the story.)

She said, “I’m going to be up there someday.” With those words someday came in a blink of an eye, and she was up there, just like she said she would be. She is now flying around in the tracer on a daily training mission looking for her target, and without warning, her target appears shooting at her. She moves out of the way, missing the target’s fire. She says, “There you are!” and fires off an onslaught of missiles at the target, but misses, and without a second notice she comes back shouting, “Come on!” and this time hits her target….

her:
Dear Vincent, On Mars it was none stop training, these ships are massive, and it is so hard to learn everything that controls them, and I used to bitch about my sword in Kendo class, but you know me. I’m top in my group. The sight seen here is fantastic. It so strange seeing these things in real life. you can take a picture of something and it never does it justice. I think about that sometime, when i see a picture of you. The Tarstion kill everyone in the first survey unite here, but we manage to retrieve some of their own technology, it may give us the edge we need.

The Lausitheu is amazing, home to me now. By the time you read this Mars will be just a memory. Were at Jupiter now. My god the clouds, but the fluxes tub between Io and Jupiter, you have to see it to believe it

On a sunny afternoon, he falls fast asleep with his cell phone in hand. Suddenly, his phone rings with a new text message, waking him up as if it was a sign of life. He reads the message from the woman he holds dear to himself.

him:
It’s her. She was a friend of mine in school, I though we would be together later but, well things change. She on Jupiter now, army. and me I’d bombed the Self Defence Force. looks like vocational school for me. I don’t have a job, don’t have a goal. She was always so strong, and I was strong when I was with her. Now I’m weak, two of her messages arrive, then I get weaker.

her:
Finally leaving Jupiter, you know these messages are being monitor, and our final destination is classified, so listen it will take longer…

him:
…and longer for these messages to reach you, and this one should take, what half a year still…

her:
…call me, I know this 20th century air mail isn’t perfect, but it’s all we got.

him:
Two semesters down, and still no word, and everyday it’s the same thing* he checks his phone for a new message but hears only ” you have no messages” Everyday I make a vale, don’t check today, just wait a day or two then check. * a few days has pass and as he checks his phone he still get “you have no messages” Everyday the same message… no message

her:
Dear Vincent, I’m at Pluto now, the end of are system. It’s been six months since I’ve left Earth, I’m talking my time.The Lausitheu Aremode has followed the Tarstion Survey all the way to Jupiter, bust still no sign of them. I have to be honest, I almost wish we never found them at all. . . then I could come back to you.

As she texts her messages to Vincent, she receives a warning alert saying that the Tarstion were confirmed at 12 o’clock and that their distance is twenty thousand. They are get tracer ready for battle, as tracers 1-4 are being prepared for dispatch, as they enter their first battle with the Tarstion.As she gets ready to dispatch, she starts to talk to herself, telling herself that “this is it”, as a way for her to get herself ready for the battle that is about to commence. As she launches into battle, she breathes heavily. She gets the warning light, while being attacked by the first wave of Tarstions, and without warning she has already received damage by their first attack.

Seeing how they are coming back for another round, she quickly turns the table around, with all three targets in her sight. She says with a grin on her face “my turn now,” as she fires off a barrage of missiles their way. Taking down two of them, she misses the third one as it comes back around, and gets up close and personal with her. She is stunned and can’t move away from it. She has a face to face stare off with the Tarstion. It starts to spread itself out and wraps itself around her. Being face to face with it she doesn’t know what to do and then it happens, The Tarstion shows her it’s eye, and she screams out as she fires off a shot into its face, killing it.

Breathing even heavier than before, from what just happened, she receives a message from the Lausitheu. There is a group of Tarstion not far from them, and that they will be doing a light year warp, all tracers should come back to the ship immediately. As she hears the message from the Lausitheu, she is searching for her cell phone, and by the time she finds it, she is once again shot at by enemy fire. She tries to fire back but misses. As she is desperately trying to make it back to the ship, she gets another message telling her to come back to the ship immediately. She tells herself that she trying to, but fears that they will leave her behind. As the enemy gets closer to her she uses an energy blade and slices the Tarstion right down the middle splitting it in two. She rushes to the Lausitheu, as she barely makes it back just in time for the warp jump.

Meanwhile back on earth. Vincent still waits patiently for her message, but is unaware of what she is going through… and back in space she learns that the ships have warped out and that they don’t have a way to get back to earth just yet as they make it to Searouls. She learns all of this as she finishes her message and sends it off to Vincent.

her:
forty eight hours to write something that will take more than a year to reach him. god… from Searouls it will be eight years one way. oh Vincent, don’t forget about me.

Back on Earth, much time has passed and days come and go. It’s just another day like any other, though on this day the skies are gray and cloudy, as it’s raining hard. Vincent finds himself caught in the rain.

him:
Season come and go, and now summer here again. Winter, last year i quite waiting for mail from Electra. A year , who could blame me.

Vincent makes his way to the bus stop, a place where he holds so many memories of Electra. He sighs with relief as he sits back and waits for the rain to stop. Sitting there lost in thought, his phone rings with a new message.

him:
It’s her, she alive
after this the Lausitheu will go into warp drive into Searouls

her:
8.6 life years away, by the time you read this i’ll already be there, and now it will take eight years and seven months to receive mail. . . I’m sorry . . . it breaks my heart

Both:
there so much space between us . . .

Him:
“I’ve forgotten how long it was since we last saw each other. To me, a distance that takes eight light years to travel, seems like forever. You and I drift further and further apart. I’ve had to do some things, do some things differently. I make my heart harder, colder, and stronger. I stand before a door that will never open. Still I’m not crying for an eternity, and you will remain you… beautiful…, and young, and I will grow older… I will grow older alone…”

(Back in the deep reaches of space, the Lausithe has made its way out of the light year warp, and has finally reached the planetary system of Searouls. The Lausithe makes it way to the planet called Agartue, the home of the Tarstion. Making their way to the planet, the Lausithe deploys a unit of tracers to explore the planet. )

Her:
“We always knew that Searouls had its own planetary system , but we are the first in all of humanity to see another system with our bare eyes. We’re at the fourth planet in the system, Agartue.”

( As Electra and the rest of the tracers unit make their way through the atmosphere to Agartue, they quietly come to find out that Agartue is almost the same as the Earth. However they find very small differences between the two, as they explore the planet.)

Her:
“Agartue has sky, clouds, and seas. It’s quite a lot like earth actually, but it’s not the same.
It only makes me realizes how far away I am from you… and drifting further…”

( As they continue their exploration on the planet, they receive a message saying “all exploration units from 1-12: There still no evidences of the Tarstion.” They continue on their recon of Agartue. Each member of the unit goes their own way. Electra finds herself amazed as she explores this new world; it is so much like the world she had left behind. She is speechless as she looks at the world around herself. Clouds start to form up as it starts to rain on her.)

Her:
“WoW! I want to be hit by the rain. I just want to get something to eat… at the bus stop… with you… “

( Sitting there in the tracer, she holds herself tightly as tears start to form and run down her cheeks. She sits there crying to herself, thinking of the time she had with him. With eyes full of tears, she takes out her cell phone and begins to text a message to him. She can’t seem to stop crying.
As she sends her message to him, she closes her eyes and pulls the phone towards her, holding it tightly in her hands saying to herself ”please get there.” The rain stops and the sun comes out once more. With images of her past flashing in her mind, her eyes open to see something that takes her by surprise. She says to herself ”It’s me !!” Standing there look at herself, or something like herself, she can’t seem to find the words to speak. )

Other Self:
“So, you finally come this far haven’t you ?” (It shows it’s real self as being a Tarstion.
In its true form, it continues to talk to Electra.) “Painful isn’t it ? But pain is necessary.
You’re probably able to go much further, you know, other galaxies, other stars . Will you come with me?? I’d like to give you something very important.”

Her :
Looking at the Tarstion’s true form, she starts to cry even more.
She tries to talk to herself, “ I just want to see him again, I do, just to tell him that I love him”

Other Self:
“It will be alright. You will see him again.”

(Then as if nothing had happened, her tracer arms itself and flashes warning lights,
She receives a messages saying ” Tarstion are everywhere on Agartue, encountering combat, they are in orbit and are approaching us.” Without warning, a light beam is fired right on top of her, making a huge explosion. It misses her within seconds of her jumping out of the way, as she gasps for air and screams “Nooo!!”)

(Meanwhile back on Earth many years has passed. Vincent is coming home from his long day. He stands out on his balcony lost in thought of the time that’s gone by.” )

Him:
“That summer day, when I thought eight years seemed like an eternity. I didn’t think I had a life. But I was wrong. I’m getting on with my life. I live in my own time, and finally next month,
I’ll nail the Omega duty that I’ve worked so hard for.”

(While lost in his own thoughts, he hears his phone going off with a new message.
Slowly walking up to the phone, as he looks to see that the message came from her.
He hesitates to open the message, but does so carefully. As he reads her message, he sighs, and says her name “Electra…” )

(Back on Agartue , Electra is fighting to stay alive , killing one Tarstion after another. )

Him:
It was just two sentences… “Happy 24th birthday. From your 15year old me.”
The rest was only static. It’s like a miracle, to hear from her after all this time.

Her:
“I don’t want you to feel bad about this , I have so many memories to think about.
They’re all I have now. You know what I miss ?? I miss…”

Him:
“I miss things like summer clouds , and cold rain , with you .”

Both:
“The smell of your hair.”

Her:
“every moment we spent together”

Him:
“the street in the night”

Both:
“and the day in the rain”

Her:
“Oh Vincent, time was so generous to us , and yet time is still such a cruel thief.

”

Him:
“I just wish it hadn’t stolen you ….Electra.”

(As the battle goes on the Tarstion are all over the place. Electra is taking each one on, as she makes her way back to space to protect the Lausithe. While doing so, she takes heavy damage, with the loss of her Tarstion arm when she was trying to shoot down one of the Tarstion. Without it, she hesitates, then comes back around and cuts it right thru the middle with her beam saber. As the battle continues, the Lausithe and the other ships fire off at the Tarstion space ship, though they don’t damage them. They were destroyed when the Tarstion space ship rammed head on into them, taking both ships out, leaving only the Lausithe and the mother ship of the Tarstion. Electra flies in front of the Lausithe, as the ship and herself fire off everything that they have. She flies off to make her last stand. )

Her:
“Vincent, we’re so far apart , but maybe thoughts can overcome time, and distances …

”

Him:
“Do you think something like that could happen ??”

Her :
“Yes”

Him:
“One thought…”

( Flying with everything she has, she flies right though all the Tarstion, as they are destroyed
by the attack from the Lausithe. She makes her way to the Tarstion mother ship, and sets her beam saber to max. With one fatal hit , she takes the saber and runs it all the way though the mother ship, destroying it. She flies off from it, as it is floating off into space. )

Her:
“One thought”

Him:
“One thought … what would it be ??

”

Her :
“it would be ….

”

Both :
“I’m here . . .”

(Back in the deep reaches of space,  the Lausithe has made its way out of the light year warp, and has finally reached the planetary system of Searouls.  The Lausithe makes it way to the planet called Agartue, the home of the Tarstion. Making their way to the planet,  the Lausithe deploys a unit of tracers to explore the planet. )

Her:

“We always knew that Searouls had its own planetary system , but we are the first in all of humanity to see another system with our  bare eyes. We’re at the fourth planet in the system, Agartue.”

( As Electra and the rest of the tracers unit make their way through the atmosphere to Agartue, they quietly come to find out that Agartue is almost the same as the Earth. However they find very small differences between the two, as they explore the planet.)



Her:

“Agartue has sky, clouds, and seas.  It’s quite a lot like earth actually, but it’s not the same.
It only makes me realizes how far away I am from you… and drifting further…”

( As they continue their exploration on the planet, they receive a message saying “all exploration units from 1-12:  There still no evidences of the Tarstion.” They continue on their recon of Agartue.  Each member of the unit goes their own way.  Electra finds herself amazed as she explores this new world;  it is so much like the world she had left behind. She is speechless as she looks at the world around herself.  Clouds start to form up as it starts to rain on her.)

Her: 

“WoW! I want to be hit by the rain.  I just want to get something to eat… at the bus stop… with you… “

( Sitting there in the tracer, she holds herself tightly as tears start to form and run down her cheeks.  She sits there crying to herself, thinking of the time she had with him. With eyes full of tears, she takes out her cell phone and begins to text a message to him.  She can’t seem to stop crying.
As she sends her message to him, she closes her eyes and pulls the phone towards her, holding it tightly in her hands saying to herself  ”please get there.”  The rain stops and the sun comes out once more. With images of her past flashing in her mind, her eyes open to see something that takes her by surprise. She says to herself  ”It’s me !!” Standing there look at herself, or something like herself,  she can’t seem to find the words to speak. )

Other Self:

“So, you finally come this far haven’t you ?”   (It shows it’s real self as being a Tarstion.
 In its true form,  it continues to talk to Electra.)  “Painful isn’t it ?  But pain is necessary. 
You’re probably able to go much further, you know, other galaxies, other stars . Will you come with me??  I’d like to give you something  very important.”

Her :

Looking at the Tarstion’s true form,  she starts to cry even more.
 She tries to talk to herself, “ I just want to see him again, I do,  just to tell him that  I love him”

Other Self:

“It will be alright.  You will see him again.”

(Then as if nothing had happened,  her tracer arms itself  and flashes warning lights,  
She receives a messages saying ” Tarstion are everywhere on Agartue, encountering combat, they are in orbit and are approaching us.” Without warning, a light beam is fired right on top of her, making a huge explosion.  It misses her within seconds of her jumping out of the way, as she gasps for air and screams “Nooo!!”)

(Meanwhile back on Earth many years has passed. Vincent is coming home from his long day. He stands out on his balcony lost in thought of the time that’s gone by.” )

Him:

“That summer day, when I thought eight years seemed like an eternity.  I didn’t think I had a life.  But I was wrong. I’m getting on with my life. I live in my own time, and finally next month,
 I’ll nail the Omega duty that I’ve worked  so hard for.”

(While lost in his own thoughts, he hears his phone going off with a new message.
Slowly walking up to the phone, as he looks to see that the message came from her.
He hesitates to open the message, but does so carefully.  As he reads her message,  he sighs, and says her name “Electra…” )

(Back on Agartue , Electra is fighting to stay alive , killing one Tarstion after another. )

Him:

It was just two sentences… “Happy 24th birthday. From your 15year old me.”
The rest was only static. It’s like a miracle,  to hear from her after all this time.



Her:

“I don’t want you to feel bad about this , I have so many memories to think about.
They’re all I have now. You know what I miss ?? I miss…”



Him:

“I miss things like  summer clouds , and cold rain , with you .”

Both:

“The smell of your hair.”



Her:
“every moment we spent together”



Him:  
“the street in the night”



Both:  
“and the day in the rain”



Her:

“Oh Vincent, time was so generous to us , and yet time is still such a cruel thief.

”

Him:
“I just wish it hadn’t stolen you ….Electra.”

(As the battle goes on the Tarstion are all over the place.  Electra is taking each one on, as she makes her way back to space to protect the Lausithe.  While doing so, she takes heavy damage,  with the loss of her Tarstion arm when she was trying to shoot down one of the Tarstion. Without it, she hesitates, then comes back around and cuts it right thru the middle with her beam saber. As the battle continues, the Lausithe and the other ships fire off at the Tarstion space ship, though they don’t damage them. They were destroyed when the Tarstion space ship rammed head on into them, taking both ships out, leaving only the Lausithe and the mother ship of the Tarstion. Electra flies in front of the Lausithe, as the ship and herself fire off everything that they have. She flies off to make her last stand. )

Her:

“Vincent, we’re so far apart , but maybe thoughts can overcome time, and distances …

”

Him:

“Do  you think something like that could happen ??”



Her :

“Yes”



Him:

“One thought…”

( Flying with everything she has, she flies right though all the Tarstion, as they are destroyed
 by the attack from the Lausithe.  She makes her way to the Tarstion mother ship, and sets her beam saber to max.  With one fatal hit , she takes the saber and runs it all the way though the mother ship, destroying it.   She flies off from it, as it is floating off into space. )

Her:

“One thought”



Him:

“One thought … what would it be ??

”

Her :

“it would be ….

”

Both :

“I’m here . . .”

As she texts her messages to Vincent, she receives a warning alert saying that the Tarstion were confirmed at 12 o’clock and that their distance is twenty thousand. They are get tracer ready for battle, as tracers 1-4 are being prepared for dispatch, as they enter their first battle with the Tarstion.As she gets ready to dispatch, she starts to talk to herself, telling herself that “this is it”, as a way for her to get herself ready for the battle that is about to commence. As she launches into battle, she breathes heavily.   She gets the warning light, while being attacked by the first wave of Tarstions, and without warning she has already received damage by their first attack.

Seeing how they are coming back for another round, she quickly turns the table around, with all three targets in her sight. She says with a grin on her face “my turn now,” as she fires off a barrage of missiles their way. Taking down two of them, she misses the third one as it comes back around, and gets up close and personal with her.  She is stunned and can’t move away from it. She has a face to face stare off with the Tarstion. It starts to spread itself out and wraps itself around her. Being face to face with it she doesn’t know what to do and then it happens, The Tarstion shows her it’s eye, and she screams out as she fires off a shot into its face, killing it.

Breathing even heavier than before, from what just happened, she receives a message from the Lausitheu. There is a group of Tarstion not far from them, and that they will be doing a light year warp,  all tracers should come back to the ship immediately. As she hears the message from the Lausitheu, she is searching for her cell phone, and by the time she finds it, she is once again shot at by enemy fire. She tries to fire back but misses. As she is desperately trying to make it back to the ship, she gets another message telling her to come back to the ship immediately. She tells herself that she trying to, but fears that they will leave her behind. As the enemy gets closer to her she uses an energy blade and slices the Tarstion right down the middle splitting it in two. She rushes to the Lausitheu, as she barely makes it back just in time for the warp jump.

Meanwhile back on earth. Vincent still waits patiently for her message, but is  unaware of what she is going through… and back in space she learns that the ships have warped out and that they don’t have a way to get back to earth just yet as they make it to Searouls. She learns all of this as she finishes her message and sends it off to Vincent.

her:
forty eight hours to write something that will take more than a year to reach him. god… from Searouls it will be eight years one way. oh Vincent, don’t forget about me.

Back on Earth, much time has passed and days come and go. It’s just another day like any other, though on this day the skies are gray and cloudy, as it’s raining hard. Vincent finds himself caught in the rain.

him:
Season come and go, and now summer here again. Winter, last year i quite waiting for mail from Electra. A year , who could blame me.

Vincent makes his way to the bus stop, a place where he holds so many memories of Electra. He sighs with relief as he sits back and waits for the rain to stop. Sitting there lost in thought, his phone rings with a new message.

him:
It’s her, she alive
after this the Lausitheu will go into warp drive into Searouls

her:
8.6 life years away, by the time you read this i’ll already be there, and now it will take eight years and seven months to receive mail. . . I’m sorry . . . it breaks my heart

Both:
there so much space between us . . .

She said, “I’m going to be up there someday.” With those words someday came in a blink of an eye, and she was up there, just like she said she would be.  She is now flying around in the tracer on a daily training mission looking for her target, and without warning, her target appears shooting at her. She moves out of the way, missing the target’s fire.    She says, “There you are!” and fires off an onslaught of missiles at the target, but misses, and without a second notice she comes back shouting, “Come on!” and this time hits her target….

her:
Dear Vincent, On Mars it was none stop training, these ships are massive, and it is so hard to learn everything that controls them, and I used to bitch about my sword in Kendo class, but you know me. I’m top in my group. The sight seen here is fantastic. It so strange seeing these things in real life. you can take a picture of something and it never does it justice. I think about that sometime, when i see a picture of you. The Tarstion kill everyone in the first survey unite here, but we manage to retrieve some of their own technology, it may give us the edge we need.

The Lausitheu is amazing, home to me now. By the time you read this Mars will be just a memory. Were at Jupiter now. My god the clouds, but the fluxes tub between Io and Jupiter, you have to see it to believe it

On a sunny afternoon, he falls fast asleep with his cell phone in hand. Suddenly, his phone rings with a new text message, waking him up as if it was a sign of life. He reads the message from the woman he holds dear to himself.

him:
It’s her. She was a friend of mine in school, I though we would be together later but, well things change. She on Jupiter now, army. and me I’d bombed the Self Defence Force. looks like vocational school for me. I don’t have a job, don’t have a goal. She was always so strong, and I was strong when I was with her. Now I’m weak, two of her messages arrive, then I get weaker.

her:
Finally leaving Jupiter, you know these messages are being monitor, and our final destination is classified, so listen it will take longer…

him:
…and longer for these messages to reach you, and this one should take, what half a year still…

her:
…call me, I know this 20th century air mail isn’t perfect, but it’s all we got.

him:
Two semesters down, and still no word, and everyday it’s the same thing* he checks his phone for a new message but hears only ” you have no messages” Everyday I make a vale, don’t check today, just wait a day or two then check. * a few days has pass and as he checks his phone he still get “you have no messages” Everyday the same message… no message